| Location | Kilmarnock |
| Age | 18 years |
| Cause of Death | Suicide |
| Date of Birth | 01/10/1985 |
| Date of Death | 17/10/2003 |
| Visitors | 782 since 24/08/2009 |
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Colin sadly could no longer face the world. 17 days after his 18th birthday he took his own life ...
He is at peace now .. My precious child has left so many family and friends who loved him so much
... SWEET CHILD OF MINE . Miss you so much ..XXX
Don't Judge Me - by Unknown Author
Don't judge me for how I left this world,
Remember the love I gave,
A lot of grief will follow me
For the decision that I made.
Changes appear in everyone's life
Some good, some bad,
The one I chose for myself
Made everyone very sad.
But in time the memories
will heal the hurt of hearts
And my presence will be felt by all
With an inner peace.
Remember me when the sun is bright
And laughter fills the air
And a moonlit night and a whisper of wind
Will tell you I am there.
Don't look down on my family
Or fill their hearts with blame
For my leaving them without good-byes
Has left them so much pain.
If I could go back in time
I would say a last good-bye
I would tell them to look to tomorrow
And for me, please do not cry.
SweetChild of Mine - I almost felt you were, Colin. You just fitted into our household and family as if you'd always been there. You had a special relationship with wee Indi-Bob-and she'd have followed you to the ends of the earth, if she could've walked fast enough! Such an easy personality as yours is hard to come by and so very sorely missed. You will always hold a special place in all of our hears, Colin. You deserve to be in a better place now. Enjoy rocking the heavens and knock the socks off the angels! Let me in too when I come knock, knock, knocking on Heaven's door. I'll likely have a few more wrinkles, but you'll hopefully still recognise me....love to you, 'borrowed son.'
Alright man.
Well, 6 years and I still have no idea what to say. For the time that we got to hang out, you were the funniest, most energetic guy I knew. You walked faster than anyone ever, and to this day, I don't think I've met anyone who would have a chance of keeping up with you.
You couldn't have given less of a crap about what other people thought, and most of the time it seemed like the more contrary an idea was, the better it was (exhibit A:taking a bee for a walk) which was fantastic.
Every time you pop into my head, you're either dipping a bit of lime into some lemonade and lime, laughing, or pulling devil horns (and a cheesey grin) and saying ten-f*ckin-points. Mum didn't like it, but it was still funny as hell.
Oh, and when we went to see the Damned, and Nat got proper embarrassed cos we were dancin about pulling devil horns. "devil horns? at a punk gig?" Top notch.
You affected everyone who met you in the best of ways, and I doubt anyone who met you even for a second will forget you.
Best of all, you made my sis happy, and that was a tough task.
You're a rare sort, Colin. I'm forever grateful that I got to know you.
Party hard man! \m/
summer 2001
alright chief!
although i never really go the chance to know you as well as some of our other friends, i was still very sad to hear the news of what happened.
i will always remember the summer of 2001 when i came back to town from uni and we all spent our days floating about town and hanging out just for the sake of getting out. you always used to laugh and call me a hippy because of a certain past time of mine, but now you are with the biggest hippy of them all.... the Big Man upstairs. I hope you're ripping him as much as you did me!!
i remember the day when me, you, gary, and some of the guys found ourselves on the wrong end of some trouble and were chased about town by an angry group of neds all day and you actually found the whole situation funny and were laughing when the rest of us were getting nervous. i still tell my friends that story to this day.
i moved back to edinburgh shortly after and never really came back to town again so lost touch with many people, but that summer was one of the best summers i have ever had, and you were an equal part with everyone else who made it so awesome and i thank you for it.
Im sad that you decided to move on the way you did and couldnt and still cant belive that someone i always saw smiling and happy was so troubled inside.
i hope youre at peace now dude and partying it up with the Big Man.
luv fae sprought
A true friend
Where to even start... I loved and still love you from the bottom of my heart. Ever since the day i met you we had a connection and spent many a fun time hanging out at the park or in your room or at the council offices where you and all the guys would skateboard and i would sit on the grass and watch because i was crap at it, ha ha. I could always talk to you about anything and knew that you would never judge me. You were also one of the few people who made a real effort to stay in touch when i moved to Glasgow. We would write to each other and i remember the night you came up to visit and i got really drunk and started rolling about in the leaves and then when i started to feel sick you took care of me. I remember asking you out and you said no because you didn't want to burden me with your problems, though I would never have felt like that. But even though you rejected me (ha ha) it didn't change how i felt about you as a friend and we remained as close as we'd ever been. The song 'Party Hard' by Andrew W.K. will always remind me of you. You were a truly great person and one of the things I loved most about you was that you didn't care what anyone thought of you and you never tried to pretend you were anything other than yourself, you were always just Colin. I will join you someday in heaven my friend and we can pick up where we left off...
I know you appreciated the poem i wrote for you so I would like to put it here...
A Star
Everytime I look at the sky I'll see Colin
A star sparkling with beauty and charisma
He shines and touches my heart
His light brightens my eyes
A star who gave me true friendship
A star I will never forget
His name is one that will always make me smile
As i remember how special he was to me
And how lucky I am that Colin was a part of my life.
I'll love you forever,
Lyndsay xxx
God's Own Party Starter
Over the years I knew you I didn't always understand you or understand the excentricity that we all grew to love. Eventually I gave in trying to understand it and it was only at that point that it all made sense to me.
Here was a kid dressed in a black leather jacket, blacked out to the point of I can't see sunglasses, hair with so much hair gel holding it in the swept back position that even john travolta himself would have been impressed. All the while dancing about a primary school stage in, I'm guessing, Primary 5 with a knackered old motorbike raising his fist to some thrash metal!
To many this would seem out of the ordinary but to you mate it was just another way of showing everyone else the things that you loved. Looking back I can safely say that day was the time that it all fell into place for me and I realised that even from a young age you had it sussed. It didn't matter what other people thought, you were who you were and nobody could change that. Theres something in there that we can all take away from it!
To Moira, I've never really known you and only new Colin through our school years but I can assure you that if ever god was bored and was fed up of looking after us lot Colin would be there with the music blaring and a smile to keep the big man going!
Theres an old saying which I hold dear to my heart "Many are called but few are chosen" let me assure you Colin was definetley one of the chosen.
At this point most people would say something to the effect of rest in peace but I know your not. Your raising the biggest damn party that heaven has ever seen so in the mean time keep the songs playing, keep the drink flowing and I'll see you when I get there big man!
x X x
Legend!!!
As your well aware I miss you loads buddy! Its true that you dont know what you've got till its gone and we all learned that the hard way.
Some of the best days we had were at Silverwood at which we ran the show!!!(oh the BANTER!)hehe. Some of the funniest things to happen at the jimmy involved me and you in Science, scaring ol McClelland and in Home Economics destroying "many a good dish"... COMEDY!!!
The funky clothes, the black shades, the spiked hair, the lack of interest in what others thought of you at a time in our lives when others strived to ensure they were popular, the taste in music, the skill you had in football even though you hated it, your issue with IRN BRU hehe and many many more brilliant traits made you you.
I read once that "he who lives on in the memories of friends is not gone but only sleeping" Hope to be waking you up soon! Never forget.
Until next time old friend
Kevin
I'm writing this from heaven where I dwell with God above. Where there's no more tears or sadness, there's just eternal love. Please do not be unhappy, just because I'm out of sight. Remember that I'm with you, every morning, noon and night. That day I had to leave you, when my life on earth was through, God picked me up and hugged me and he said "I welcome you. Its good to have you back again. You were missed while you were gone. As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on."
Then God gave me a list of things He wished for me to do. And foremost on that list of mine, is to watch and care for you. And I will be beside you every day and week and year. And when you're sad, I'm standing there to wipe away the fear. And when you lie in bed at night the days' chores put to flight, God and I are closest to you in the middle of the night. When you think of my life on earth, because you're only human, it's bound to bring you tears. But do not be afraid to cry, it does relieve the pain. Remember, there would be no flowers unless there was some rain.
It's always God's philosophy and I'd like it for you too, that as you give unto the world, the world will give to you. If you can help someone who is in sorrow or in pain, then you can say to God at night, My day was not in vain. And now I am content that my life was worthwhile, knowing as I passed along the way, I made someone smile. So if you meet someone who is down and feeling low, just lend a hand to pick him up as on your way you go. When you are walking down the street and you've got me on your mind, I'm walking in your footsteps only a half a step behind. And when you feel that gentle breeze or the wind upon your face, that's me giving you a great big hug or just a soft embrace. And when it's time for you to go from that body to be free, remember you're not going, you're coming here to me. And I will always love you from that land way up above. We'll be in touch again soon. P.S. God sends His love.
To my old timer. Of the many great times during my childhood, most of them included being with you. Throughout our school years we had our fair share of fallouts and countless comedy moments.
I fondly remember you going through your "Terminator"phase, the black jacket, the shades, the slick back hair. Only you could have pulled off that look!! Some of my best memories were of you, Jim, Meikle, Samantha and myself running the show at Shipmates, 3 summers on the trot! Or hanging out at break times outside the RE department with Neil.
You left a void when you decided to leave us. You were the rock so many of your friends leaned upon when we were too weak to save ourselves. You were the voice of truth and reason when we couldnt see for ourselves what was right in front of us. You gave us the chance to be heard when others turned their backs on us.
I have some comfort in knowing that the many unanswered questions you had in your life have been given the meaning you craved so much.
Il be seeing you again my friend, looking forward to seeing you smile
Amanda xxx
Love you loads
For anyone who knew Colin, knows how many lives he touched. He was outgoing, intelligent, funny, compassionate, handsome.. Colins sense of humour,bad at times, always making jokes. He lived for his music,dont know how many times he was told to turn it down. Colin was my only child, my soul mate. I know I will meet him again.. His friends have helped me more than they know without them i wouldnt have seen the light at the end of the dark tunnel..Love them all and i know Colin did too...
Love you loads ...Mum
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